Twenties

Yesterday was my official day of entering my twenties birthday. I am a January born baby so I get ‘younger’ than everyone else. Here, I would like to thanks everyone for all the wishes. I received them with happiness. Feeling grateful from all the wishes you guys gave me (in Facebook, Whatsapp, Twitter and so on) … Thank You!

I’m so glad that my family actually drove down all the way from hometown to KL just to meet me and celebrate my birthday with me. I know this sounds old but I just want a small family dinner and gathering for my birthday is more than enough for me. I don’t like to throw big party on my birthday (who don’t want that right?). I know. I just like the atmosphere of being united with my family and my close friends. Every year, I can’t celebrate my birthday at home because I am either study outside or out town. Majority is because of I’m studying outside. I always have an early birthday celebration instead of the real day celebration. This year, I missed my ice-cream cake. Next time probably. Well, thank you for celebrating my birthday with me. I love you guys so much. Hehe! <3 xoxo

Luckily this year I wasn't lonely for my birthday (I mean apart from home) because January is the stage where you don’t have much friends. You just started your college or whatsoever. You wouldn't want to tell everyone “Hello, my birthday today…” It sounds extremely weirdo. I’m glad that my friends celebrate with me. We are students, so **don’t need to pay for my meal**. I more than happy to just have dinner with you guys. Hehe! Thank you much for the night. Appreciate and feel grateful.

Hmm… Let me think….

Entering twenties is actually not a big deal. It just numbers right? But it looks old. It’s considered as a mature stage and I don’t feel any mature somehow yet. I know everyone like saying you’re 20 now and you need to think like an adult. But, somehow be a kiddo is happier to be an adult you know. Kids don’t think complicated way and they just be a kid. I do miss those days which I don’t need to think much about my life and just do whatever I want and I like. As I getting older and older, there are much things to worry. Your life, your study pathway and your career. May be I overthink, I do have this worry about my life sometimes. Trust me, I am happy to choose what I am choosing right now. I know it’s extremely hard but I can do it. I can.

May be I should kind of like target myself for certain things in my life and make it more meaningful. Yeah. I have 7 + 1 main goals in my mind so far, can’t think of others yet:

1.  Successfully graduates on my degree with good results.
2. Get a good well-paid job so I can be independent on my life without using my parent’s money.
3. Bring my family to travel (Europe maybe?  J)
4. I can have my own Husky only when my responsibility leveled up/ready.
5. Increase my workout time because I want to look fit and healthy, I know it’s long way to go, but I should hit the gym more often.
6. Be a traveler as part time job because I love to travel to explore more other countries and places. Different countries have different cultures, this is what travel attracts me.
7. 21^st birthday goes skydive. 21^st birthday seems special and I just want to do something challenging and … special.
8. Find a nice boyfriend may be? See how it goes. Didn't think much of it. ‘Not so important this one’.

Happy Birthday Jerene ...

May I wishes all comes true.

** will post my pictures after that...

                Good Luck,

KL I'm Coming

Good Afternoon people.

Later at night I'm going to KL, yeppy...

This is I am following my uni to KL for the education fair which located at KLCC.

I can't wait to join an event like this.

Well... the main point is my parents is coming to visit me. I'm so happy.

For sure, it is a great thing to promote your own uni.

I have happy life here so I would like to share.

Hmmm... Just have fun beh.

I can't wait to meet my parents...

Haha!! My coming birthday can't celebrate at home, hence, 

I celebrate with them at KL.

I haven't pack my things. hmm.. too early yet too lazy.

I will pack later then. Haha!!

Cheers.

See you next time.

                Good Luck,

I Don't Want To Know

I don’t want to know…

I don’t want to know…

I still don’t want to know…

Alright. I knew it already.

I got back my math test result. Holy cow! I score pretty damn low.

Worst in my life again.

Another first time.

I have no freaking idea why I score that low. I should have like ‘tikam’ the answer instead of blanking it.

I should have do that.

I just wish that my final exam will miraclely score high marks and show how much effort I put on it and show it to me.

Otherwise, I will pretty damn pissed at myself for not having a good marks.

I just finish my computing exam.

Another disaster.

I try to do every question that I can ever think of.

I manage to solve two question which I don’t know whether is correct or not.

I just wish that they can like give me marks based on what I did. My answer isn’t complete. Can they give me the upper part’s mark? I wish they do. So that I can have marks instead of having ‘eggs’ in my papers.

See how it goes.

Something happened that I hope never happen, it did happened just now.

I was writing my code and want to run the code, the whole computer system crack.

I’m like hell no! hell no! I don’t know what to do but seeing the loading sign on my screen.

I was like oh, fuck. Not at this time man.

I gained another 10 minutes to do yet I still don’t know how to do.

I write every doc string first then only do my code. Haha!

Wish that I can have marks on that. Oh well…

Code part, pray hard Jerene.

I try to do every question, at least frontal part not the back one. I don’t know how to continue…

Oh man, I should have put extra efforts on it… yaidddd….

Nevermind… first try. Never try never know.

I feel somehow tense because I don’t know how to do while my neighbor friends all like busy typing.

I was like oh shit this time. I am kind of like scared by the keyboard sound in the exam room because everyone is like busy doing their code and typing typing, me being the one like blank and don’t know how to do. Haha! Well, what past just past… do well next time beh…

                Good Luck,

Phone Cleaning II

Time to clean up my phone for new photos.

Taking a short break while waiting for the next class...

Try to be a girly look for a day...

Mum visited me... Feeling great to see her although it is just a short while...

I want to own a bike like this. Look lovely the bike...

EcoWorld Event with friends...

Was with mum at Singapore...

With the homie for a movie...

My beautiful mama...

The little sister...

MBS, here we go...

Teehee... Looking great!

Foodie buddiesss...

This is why I enjoy window seats...

Me ferrero christmas tree... looking sweet...

With ma girlss....

Make a wish... 

Retarded face...

Here the story ends...

See you next time...

My great 2014 ...

                Good Luck,

x Hot heart x Taiwan

I've been looking for this x Hot Heart x quite a long time since I found out their Instagram from a Taiwanese artist Danson Tang 唐禹哲. They have edge designs for their clothing and accessories. I really love the style. Recently, I travel to Taiwan and accidentally found out this shop. I was attracted by their metallic backpack then only this metallic rocky red slang bag. I always wanted a color like this but badly I can't find any. Finally, I spot this and straight away I buy it. They just have only one and only one per color. So, without hesitation, I grab this bad-ass metallic red. Actually they have metallic gold and silver, I love all of them, but the most favorite one and unique color is red. So, I got you babe!

 Isn't this bad look so edge and cool. The studs besides and I don't know. Just fall in love at first eye sight. Haha! I didn't regret for buying this although it's kind of expensive. Nahh, worth it. Haha! Special color. Okay!

You should have check out their website. They have edge look clothing which I really want to buy. but, they are a little bit expensive so next time probably... alrighto...

                Good Luck,

Partly Giving Up, Partly Not

Before I get back to my study, I would like to have a little writing.

We have tests in this week and the following week. Frankly, I wasn't doing that good. I kind of feeling sucks when you know you study damn hard and when the test comes, you aren't doing well. I don’t like that feeling. I do doubt myself for being stupid or my ability started to decrease? I spend so much time on my study and when the tests come, I don’t do well on it. Imagine you spend most of your time study and revision, it doesn't pay much off on what you doing, that feeling is really a disaster.

I sit for my electrical test last Wednesday. I don’t have a strong base on electric since I’m not taking A-Level before. A-Level students always make me feel stress because they know more than you, and I feel somehow not belong with them because they know so much more than me. I don’t like electric partly because it’s complicated for me and partly because I don’t have the interest with it. I just not bond with electric. I try my best to study and do my revision on my electric subject, yet I did badly in my tests. I do blame myself for disliking electric, because once I dislike, I will dislike forever. Well, I guess I need to change my attitude. My friends helped me a lot in my electric. I feel troublesome for disturbing them by asking questions to them. But, they do help me to understand how it works. I considered as last minutes study for my electric tests, so I expect I’m not doing that well. But, electric seems interesting when you started to understand them little by little. Well, electric students are great as they find interesting in such complicated circuits that they need to know and understand. Hmm… I will try my best in my semester 2. Not giving up.

I do love math because you have unlimited solutions to solve and you will figure out something new. i do enjoy calculating and solving problems, but for this time, I doubt myself. When I get the question papers, I try my best to do on time. But, I failed. I blank 8 questions and others I don’t even know whether the answers are correct or not. I don’t have enough time to finish up my papers. I skip the questions if I don’t know how to do. This time, I doubt myself. Am I that bad in mathematics? You see, I spend so much time in learning mathematics and doing exercises, but in the end, I don’t get what I learn. There’s contrast between what I learn and what the questions come out. Most of the questions I can’t get the answers I want. Probably because I don’t know how to do or probably I calculated wrong. I do get panic when end time is coming soon, very soon. Conclusion, I did sucks in my mathematics tests.

Another will be computing. I don’t have a strong base for sure and I kind of like don’t like programming since the start. Programming seems interesting because you write code and so on. I feel that being a programmer is so great because they need to study and know how to solve those codes and write a new code for certain things. I don’t do well in my computing. I’m having the exam on Monday, I have no idea how am I going to do in my exam. During the last mock test, I don’t even know how to do one questions. That’s sucks. I try to do but I get another answer than the correct one. Oh my gosh! I started to worry. No, I worry this day will come since the beginning. I should have spent more time in computing. Too bad. I think it’s too late ;C well, I better revise hard in order for me to do at least one questions? Oh gosh, I can’t see my future in my coming exam… what should I do. Nervous yet scared. Insecure shit.

I am kind of worry because this is just 3 months’ time. Yet, I already faced these shit things in my life. I started to doubt myself although I can’t do so. I do doubt, started to doubt. May be I need work extra harder to understand the fundamental or any shit which I completely don’t know. What’s the problem now? I have no idea. Why can my friends so smart and they can like know everything? May be they are born to be genius. I’m not. I feel worry. But, I know I can’t be.

Choosing this course I expect to be challenging. Since I already know what am I doing here, I need to have the faith to complete this course with good results may be. I really do hope I can get good marks here. I don’t want to let my parents down. They are very supportive to me and I don’t want to let them down. I know what kind of life I want. Life isn't easy, if you have faith and strong enough, I believe I can deal with these shits. Yes. I can do it although it’s hard… sad life. I choose to give in my time on my study and my life, so I must have no regrets. Be strong Jerene, you can deal with this. I know you will.

Whenever my mum called me, I will tell her I’m doing fine, but in fact, I’m not. I just don’t want them to worry me as they have their own busy life to deal with. I always try to solve it within myself than sharing with other people or asking others for help with my own personal things. I got to be independent in many ways. Just hope that everything will go smoothly as I wish, I know it wouldn't, but try to be. Well, life… (my friend always says that… )

Smile. Be strong.

                Good Luck,