Little Happiness

It’s been a long day for me.

Well, I can say that these 2 weeks aren’t good weeks for me.

I have an assignment to hand in and this thing is driving me crazy.

We need to draw a fully engineering drawing with a paper given.

We need to draw 3 parts which separated into some parts of a clamping item.

It is easy to view it, but it is hard to actually draw them out.

Just so hard for me.

Frankly speaking, I am worst in drawing compared to my family.

They are way better than me.

I don’t do drawing in my life. I just don’t.

My family draws nice things except me.

After some struggling times, finally I hand in my drawings.

I don’t care much already.

In fact, I do care. It’s my masterpiece!

I use my heart to draw these drawings. I pay more extra attention to them.

I really spend so many times on them.

Everything I do is not perfect, there are always minor mistakes I make I don’t even know.

Well, I will realize something after I hand in my assignment which kind of pissed off.

I realize some already after I hand in my assignment.

I am like so fucked. So fucking fucked!

I wish I can delete this bad habit. This is not a good thing.

I will just regret everything.

Handed in, don’t care anymore. Just wait the marks will do.

My masterpiece, DONE!

I’m happy girl again.

Right after I handed in my drawing, I feel release somehow.

We decided to go have a good meal.

Well, when we reach there, they haven’t open yet.

So, we ended up in mamak store. Lol!

Not bad, I ate Roti Sardin! Wuhoo. Haha! Happy.

Sometimes I do enjoy little hawker foods than fancy foods.

Hawker foods are much better than those fancy price foods.

I love to treat myself nice foods after some ‘tough’ stuffs. Just like a present for myself and my stomach. Haha!

After I started my university life, I don’t find enjoyment in studies.

Well, not all.

I feel like I am staying in nowhere for example JUNGLE.

Whenever I step out the door steps, what I can see are trees. Trees trees trees.

Green is good, but too boring!

Basically, I feel so dull somehow when I face those papers.

I do feel pissed in studies too. I am human being.

I get pissed off.

But, my friends here are lovely.

There are types of people in class, genius typed, chill typed, nerd typed and so on.

All of them are just lovely. It is good to meet them all.

I find some enjoyment hanging with them to be truly speaking.

They are just nice to talk with and hang around.

One good news!

We are having one week holidays.

This time I didn't go back home because I will be going home on December.

Well, there’s a big plan for me. Haha!!

This time I just not go back home and save the flight money for December.

It is not because I don’t want go back home, just that my parents visited me last week so I decide not to go back and wait until December.

Well, within this holidays week, I need to catch up some studies which I haven’t revision yet.

Holidays just holidays. But, I still need to well-used it.

Just that it’s a little relaxing but not too stressing typed. Haha!

Well, that’s all for now.

Probably will share more next time.

                Good Luck,

Insomnia

If I’m awake at this hour, probably you know why.

I always suffer from insomnia.

Well, I can’t sleep at night. Not every night, but part of my nights.

I don’t know when it will strike but I just hate it so freaking much.

Sometimes your body wants to rest and your mind still don’t want to; eventually you can’t sleep at all.

It’s a really bad sign. I don’t know since when I have this. Probably after I entered college when I need to study and revision. I always sleep late though. Actually quite early, my mind is still thinking about those freaking assignments. It just won’t let me sleep.

I hate this feeling. I don’t know why. Is it because of stress or whatever shit it is. Please go away.

I really hate this. I want my bed and have a nice sleep. Urgh!

Damn it. Just damn it.

Because I can’t sleep, so I decide to do something stupid.

Study and revision.

It sounds ridiculous! Who will ever study in this hour like shit.

I don’t know what to do, just write something and read something will help me.

Damn it.

                Good Luck,

Happy Holidays!

I'm still studying in the library.

I know it is quite late and it is quite dangerous to walk back, but I have my reason.

I'm looking forward this weekends because my parents is coming to visit me!

Nothing better to hear that. Haha!

I miss them so much. Nah.

I always get nag by them but it's okay.

I'm kind of miss that. 

So, I am very sure that I won't be study right after then.

Every time my parents visit me, I turn out to be no study.

Most part because I enjoy going outside and chill with my family, 

second part is that I can relax a little while from books.

I know I shouldn't say that as I Monday got test.

Weekly. Without any changes. Sucks.

That's why I am studying right now until somehow late.

I know I won't study so I decide to study now.

Or else I am so sorry to myself for not studying before playing.

Duhh!!

Tomorrow is holiday! Yay Yay for me!

I can wake up late after some 'midnight' studying.

well well well... It's a bad habit somehow.

Happy Deepavali to all my Indian friends especially my

Bestie bitcha friend! 

I am sure you know who you are!

Well, for me, still another normal day just no class only.

Studying still carry on.

Tomorrow I am going to Zumba and Swim. yes!

Sports after some studies. Best!

I can't wait to jump into water.

I love waters. Lots sa water! Haha!!

Alright. Goodnight.

                Good Luck,

MMA Club

Time to chat with myself.

Today, it is my first day of joining MMA Club in my university.

Guess what. I love it! It’s very fun.

Actually, I love kicking and punching.

I learn a lot today from the seniors.

After some rest period of time, I’m back. Luckily I still can have nice kicks.

Punching also quite fun and excited weyh! OMG! Why shouldn’t I learn this before? Haha!

We went dinner together at KFC Gelang Patah.

It’s my first ever KFC within the years. Haha! It’s sounding long time ago but it’s true.

We had a lot of fun while we were eating. Our friend is just so funny. I couldn’t stop laughing.

Re-format and buffering.  That’s sound funny.

Well, first time in ever here I dinner with friends outside and I love it.

I am feeling bored to stay here every day. Bored!

I want go out! I did today. Happy.

Okay. I have math test today and that’s not bad. This is my weak chapter and I can score that instead of failing that, I feel happy. Thanks goodness. Clap**

Besides, I still got a drawing assessment, a group project and a 1500 words essay about self-reflection to do. Truly, I don’t even know myself like seriously. I have no clued what to start the introduction. Shit! My drawing sucks as usual, well, I need pay more attention to that regarding on my drawing skills. I’m a worst drawing person compared to my family. Gosh. 

Just I hope everything goes well as I plan. Actually I don’t have a realistic study plan. Just follow how it goes. Gosh! Just pray I can do them all well and summit just on time. Thankful ady.

                Good Luck,

Biggest Motivation

Now, it is 2.00AM. Yes. I am still awake.

Based on the title, I pretty sure you know what I’m going to talk about.
Night Strikes... Pufftttt.....

Everyone needs motivation in order to move on and move further in life.

What it matters is who is/are the one who motivates you.

For me, my family is my biggest motivator.

When I was a kid, I did pretty damn bad in my academic.

While others kids are like smarter than me. I feel like a potato.

They did well in everything. I feel like I always the last one.

I hate this freaking feeling.

Probably I want to be the top or top than any others, this is part of me.

I hate being a loser because I was before.

My parents always there to tell me you've got to move on.

If you don’t like it, you can change it. As long as it is good, you have to do it.

I don’t blame anyone.

The problem is on me.

Whether I need to change this fact or I want to stay on where I am.

Well, I choose to change who I am.

Nobody is perfect.

Although I got improvement in so far what I've got, I feel happy.

When entering secondary school,

I change from a completely Chinese society to a completely Malay-English Secondary School.

When I first step to the school, I was alone.

All my friends were studying elsewhere. Me, being the loner, I feel somehow sad.

I feel lonely.

Everyone surrounds me speaks either Malays or English.

They do speak Chinese whenever with Chinese, still it is very new to me.




Flash back to one of the idiot thing happened in high school.
It was when we first face Additional Mathematics.
Trust me, I hate Add Maths back then.
I have my own reason. Why?

I remembered when I don’t know a question; I decide to ask the teacher.

Well, I don’t always find a teacher for help. I just like to discover it myself unless I really don’t know how to do or solve that.

When I decide to ask my teacher, I get pissed.

As FYI, I hate being entitles with stupid.

It’s fucking sucks to hear it and I get annoyed with that title.

It just ruins my mood for the day or the entire week.

I will forever hate you. Like forever.

He said why you so stupid that you don’t know how to do this simple question. Duh!

If I know how to solve that, what for I find you? Like dafaq.

Since then, I hate Add Math. Screw it!

I scored bad. Shit. Regretted shit.

After I entered college, I met a very good teacher.

He helps me a lot and by then I find my interest in Maths. 

Sounds miracle. huh!

He did help me a lot. 

I miss that teacher. 

He's a very responsible teacher not like the idiot before. That's a fact.

Still, my parents always there whenever I need them.

I have them to talk with and share something I've been went through.

They always there no matter how busy are they.

Started then, I became more independent in different ways.

I don’t want to follow friends. Where they go, I go. Fuck that!

I hate it when someone say I follow my friends to study here to whatever shit it is.

Don’t you have your own mind to decide what you want instead of following?

I started to adapt. I meet new friends and blah blah blah…

I tell myself I got to be independent in many ways.

I can’t always rely on somebody.

The point is that,

Whenever I need someone to talk with or share with,

My family always there for me.

They tell and guide me what to do in order to solve that shit.

Well, I can say nothing better than talking with family.

Sometimes we do argue about some small things.

I truly believe that, argue makes our bonding stronger.

If a family live without communication, how do they even know what they feel towards each other? Am I right?

My family always my great motivator to me.

Whenever I feel like giving up something, probably I feel so sick about it or I’m too tired about it,

I always think back what they said and taught me.

They pay for my school fees and tuition fees and whatsoever fees,

They earn the money and they don’t even spend much on themselves, but us.

They work to give us better life and better education.

Hence, I study pretty damn hard to have a good results but I am still half way.

Sometimes I feel like I am so damn idiot to not get a good result while the others just like blink and got it just like that.

Well, problems probably come from me.

Am I not hardworking enough?

Do I?  I always question myself.

I always do feel unsatisfied about myself in many ways.

I just don’t feel satisfied.

My parents always say I’m a tough girl. Tougher than anyone else in the family. 

Probably I’m the only girl among my siblings. So, i do my own things on my own. I don’t have a sister there to guide me or what; I’m just the only girl, aside from mum of course.

Well, I know what I want for and what I’m fighting for.

I have my own dream and my targets to achieve.

Sometimes plans just don’t go whatever you want, you need to fight for it or you need to work your ass out to achieve it.

It’s all depends on how eager you want to achieve certain things.

Everyone has different dreams and different ways to achieve.

I do feel giving up sometimes in study.

Certain level, I lose myself too.

I don’t know why I’m here doing these things and what for I work so hard for it.

Mental problem huh? Nope. Too tired I guess. Haha! The nerves connect incorrectly perhaps.

Nah, I’m just kidding.

What I do to solve this problem is that I always think back.

I think back what my parents taught me and the ways I've been went through.

Without them, I can’t be who I am now.

Well, they are my supporters in many ways.

I love them much. I miss them so much.

Whenever I say I don't, eventually, I do. I just always denied it. I don't like to show it out. Duh!

After that, I continue what I need to be continued.

Life isn't easy. Nothing in this world is easy.

If they say is easy, what I say is BULLSHIT.

I’m just so bad and mean sometimes. Haha!

Study away from home,

When at KL, my mum still can drive to Kl, now, probably can’t.

It is way too far away and it takes 5 hours to reach.

Yet, I can’t always back home.

Flight tickets sucks. So damn expensive shit.

I rather save the flight tickets to pay for my study fees.

I do wanna go back, but consideration is important.

Yeap. I love to go back when there’s important event. Haha!

I have 2 good brothers who care me more than anyone else.

They do love this sister. Haha!

I am always the smallest one in front of them even in front of my youngest brother.

He is just my big brother.

I want scrambled eggs from him. I miss that damn fucking much.

We have good bonding since small.

Somehow, they spoiled me. Haha!

Good to have brothers like them.

Thank you for supporting no matter what.

I try to be a good and perfect girl in many ways.

I am trying to be. On the way. Haha!

I won’t let you all down.

I want you all to be proud of me.

Yes. I do.

                Good Luck,

人與人相處

I found this article and it is well said on how people and people interconnection.

Well, I can say that it is true.

Sometimes we don’t need to fulfill what others expect on you while you don’t even like it.

You don’t need make others happy in order to make your life graceful. (Sometimes yes, but depends on the situation whether it’s worth for or not)

This is life. You are being yourself; others being themselves.

We have our own circle and life.

We don’t need to change ourselves in order to make life happy and whatsoever.

1. 你不問，我不說，這就是距離；

你問了，我不說，這就是隔閡；

你問了，我說了，這就是信任；

你不問，我說了，這就是依賴。

2. 走不進的世界就不要硬擠了，難為了別人，作賤了自己，何必呢？

3. 有時候，不小心知道了一些事，才發現自己所在乎的事是那麼可笑。

4. 誰不虛偽，誰不善變，誰都不是誰的誰。又何必把一些人，一些事看的那麼重要。

5. 其實總是笑的人，真的很需要人疼。

6. 在乎我的人，我會加倍在乎！不在乎我的人，你憑什麼讓我繼續？

7:永遠不要為別人而改變自己，如果不能接受最差的你，也不配擁有最好的你。

《細品有深度的話》

1. 人在的時候，以為來日方長什麼都有機會，其實人生是減法，見一面，少一面。

2. 別人怎麼看你，和你毫無關係，你要怎麼活，也和別人毫無關係。

3. 面子到底多少錢一斤，我們為什麼要在乎別人的看法。

4. 有一天你會明白，善良比聰明更難。聰明是一種天賦，而善良是一種選擇。

5. 不聞不問不一定是忘記了，但一定是疏遠了，彼此沉默太久就連主動都需要勇氣。

6. 不要在心情糟爛差的時候，用決絕的話傷害愛你的人。

7. 有時候，沒有下一次，沒有機會重來，沒有暫停繼續。有時候，錯過了現在，就永遠永遠的沒機會了。

8. 用心甘情願的態度，去過隨遇而安的生活。

9. 所有的問題都是自己的問題。

10. 有時候，我們明明原諒了那個人，卻無法真正快樂起來，那是因為，你忘了原諒自己。

11. 一個人有生就有死，但只要你活著，就要以最好的方式活下去。可以沒有愛情，沒有名牌，但不能沒有快樂。

12. 其實，人都是很賤的，愛你寵你的人你不稀罕，對你冷若冰霜的卻是窮追不捨。最後搞的遍體鱗傷的還是自己。

13. 不要的東西，再好也是垃圾。

14. 如果你沒瞎，就別用耳朵去了解我。

15. 真正的牛逼不是你認識多少人，而是你患難的時候還有多少人認識你。

16. 那些不需要解釋的事情，從你張嘴那一刻起，你已經輸了。

……很多人闖進你的生活，只是為了給你上一課，然後轉身離開！

……距離，產生的不是美，而是詮釋了不堪一擊的愛情！

……人生煩惱就12個字. 放不下. 想不開. 看不透. 忘不了！

……女人沒魅力才覺得男人花心，男人沒實力才覺得女人現實！

……慢慢的，長大了，卻感覺變沉默了，懂得多了，卻不快樂了！

……明明不是陌生人，卻裝的比陌生人還陌生。

……在人之上要看得起人，在人之下要看得起自己！

……上帝之所以創造指紋，是因為，他想讓人們知道，其實每個人都有傷痕！

……跟自己說聲對不起，這些年一直沒學會愛自己！

……女人，不需要傾國傾城，只需要一個男人為她傾盡一生！

……在乎才會亂想，不在乎連想都不會想

                Good Luck,

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Zumba Class

Every Wednesday, we have this student enrichment night where you can use all the facilities in Sports Complex. There are many facilities such as swimming pool, gym, volleyball, tennis and so on. Every Wednesday evening onwards, students in Educity can use for free. So, every student will probably hang out there on Wednesday.

Today, I decide to go there with my friends. Well, it is another fun day. Besides fun, exhausted.

Before I start the topic about Zumba Class, let say this first.

Today is my first day of riding a scooter. Yes! It is my first time. I find it fantastic!

I can imagine people ride it in morning and welcome the cold breeze slapping on your face.

My friend fetches me today so I don’t need to walk there.

I will go there every day once I got my own transport. Release stress.

OMG! I enjoy the ride so much. I know it sounds strange but it is my very first time.

This is so cool. I even record myself. Dafaq!

Enjoy the ride! Wuhooo.

Back to Zumba Class.

Our teacher is Yati who teaches us in the class.

She’s a professional Zumba Trainer and also CPR rescuer. Just in case anyone faint or what, she will help.

Throughout the class, we are all super tired.

Well, some of my classmates went just now. So funny.

The class is conducted one to many so what we need to do is just follow the steps and dance and party time!

I miss party. Lalala…

It is an hour class. Within an hour, we dance so many songs.

By the way, Zumba is a fitness dance. Male or female can join.

I actually want to selfie with my housemate, but then nevermind, I call all of them together. Haha!

Just have fun right.

It’s not a perfect picture because there are lines at the mirror, so we can’t take it properly.

I’m short too. So I can’t snap the back one clearly. Sorry.

Here you go.

Meet Geraldine, Jean and Fazira

Feeling great after sweat.

Next plan, MMA club.

I miss fighting. Haha!! Just kidding.

                Good Luck,

Skin Care Routine

X Skin care Routine X

Skin care is the most important thing in your life.

If you want to have good skin, you must take good care of your skin.

For your information, I used to have acne skin typed.

Pimples all over the face which make me look terrible.

Before that, I don’t care about my skin actually because I’m so lazy.

It was getting worse that time.

Then, I started to use some skin care. Frankly, not every skin care products suit me.

I tried many products and none of them suits me.

It makes no different.

If you have oily skin or pimples skin typed person like me, you must try his brand.

This skin product name is Kiehl’s.

Kiehl's is an American cosmetics brand retailer that specializes in making premium skin, hair, and body care products.

When I first found this?

I found this shop at Sunway Pyramid. The shop structures make my attention towards it. Every outlet, there must have a skeleton doctor at the door. Basically, it gives me a home feel like the bathroom. Haha! Weird huh. I just like this shop.

Well, my friend introduced me again. I told her I’ve tried many skin cares and none of them suits me.

Then, my friend told me why not you try this.

Although it’s a little bit expensive, it’s best for your skin.

I give it a try then. I started using their cleanser then toner and a blemish control treatment.

Before that, there is a professional consultant there to help you out.

They will test your skin before they introduce you which products you can use.

You can also take free samples. It’s all free. No worry. You can try it before you buy them.

They will test your T-zone of your face which is forehead and nose area and your cheek areas.

They will tell you whether your skin is Oily typed or Mix typed.

As I mentioned earlier, my face is full of pimples and some are actually acne.

I hate them so much. It makes me look terrible and ugly.

When you started want beautiful as a girl, you know what I mean.

It’s a bad thing. Like worst of worst in your life.

Okay. After I use for about one and half year now, I can see improvement of my skin.

Now, I don’t have pimples like last time, just little. It’s normal to have some pimples on your face. I’m still young. Ge-hehh…

What I’ve got is my blemishes scars made from last time.

Now it’s just scars, not pimples actually. Well, I’m quite happy to hear that.

I constantly go for facial to maintain my skin and to get rid of the scars by whitening or whatsoever.

Even my brother also goes with me to facial. Boys nowadays huh.

Basically, you will be introduced to use Cleanser, Toner and a Blemish Control Treatment.

You can add on later if you see improvement on your skin. It’s totally up to you.

I will show you how the products look like and some other products you may interest.

This is my Every Day Skin Care Routine for Day and Night.

Kiehl's Ultra Facial Cleanser

Herbaline Aloe Vera Gel
(recommended by the beautician)

Calendula Herbal-Extract Alcohol Free Toner

Clearly Corrective Dark Spot Solution

( This is optional. I have unbalance skin tone before and blemishes, so I try this as recommended. I love the results on my face )

Blemish Control Daily-Skin Clearing Treatment

The Face Shop - Chia Seed Eye Gel

( I have problem with baggy eyes and panda eyes due to late sleep and study matters, It helps me a lot )

Ultra Light Daily UV Defense SPF50++ (Sunblock/Sunscreen)

Lip Balm ( Day and Night )

Laneige Pore Minimizing Mask

Nature Republic Aloe Vera Gel

So cooling when apply. Haha!! Happy xD

To have a good skin, you must hardworking, not lazy.

This is what I learnt.

Better you take care when it's not serious.

Once it's getting serious, you need spend extra money on that.

It's a bad sign.

Hope the information helps you for those have skin problem like me.

                Good Luck,