Still Awake

For the first time so far,

I have my laptop in my room.

I don't place my laptop in room usually.

Room is a place for me to relax and sleep.

yeah..

So, at this hour and it is 1.30AM right now.

I’m still awake.

I just don’t feel sleepy at all. Probably I woke up late.

1 more week,

I’m going travel with my parents. Yes.

I do looking forward for this trip.

Why?

It is because that is the trip before I head to university.

The last moments of joy before stress works coming soon.

Frankly,

I am afraid to enter university.

For the first time too.

I don’t feel this way when I went college or school.

This time, I do feel it.

I just feel extra odd on me.

I scare to meet new people, scare the new environment which is quite far from my hometown.

I scare I can’t mix with new people.

I don’t know, I just scare.

I have no fucking idea why!

May be stepping into university is kind of a new life and a new path in my life.

Another new stepping stone I need to pass.

In my generation,

Entering a university is very important, you have the cert, and you have the power.

I don’t really know whether I’m ready to get things started.

I know it’s odd to feel this way as the enrollment is coming within 3 weeks.

But, I just have this thought.

I scare I can’t cope the subjects, I scare I can’t fit to the environment.

I just scared.

I try to tell mum but she’s like treat it as a joke.

Yea, I understand because I never fear of anything.

This time, I do. I just do.

Erm….

May be things will going great once I started. Tomorrow is a better day. Yeah.

I always remind myself I’m the best and I can do it.

I always remind myself.

Goodnight.

                   Good Luck,